Life Lessons

I was to sleepy to post last night, I made every attempt, but it wasn't happening. So now, I will say what I had to say last night.

I read two things yesterday that put me in a total different mindset. 1)You know how you know something because its been said before but until you actually read or see it and digest it, the effect of the message being delivered is minimal. Well, if you read my blog then i'm sure you saw my entry mid-day yesterday. This e-mail came from a girlfriend of mine and no, not just to me like she was telling ME something but to a group of us ladies. It made me realize other reasons I may be single outside of BS-in' men. There is such a thin line between a playmate and soul mate and I think before I read that e-mail I didn't know how to walk the line. I now realize that in my life, i've had a series of playmates, thinking that because so many aspects of "us" felt good, it's who I had to be with.....I would even make the claim of being soul mates.

These "persons" and I couldn't have been soul mates, when you are connected to someones soul, they must be connected to yours. Reciprocity comes easy and effortlessly and this was the case on a consistent basis. I have already stopped believing in the beginning of relationships. Meaning, as a relationship develops, more and more realities appear as you get farther along into it, not excluding myself. The men that i've met are so unreal at the beginning or way to real. The unreal ones change into what you find out to be a habitual liar and the ones who are way to real aren't liars but don't want to or can't focus on something real. Regardless, I do still believe in brutha's, I just am learning new things daily that makes me put some things in perspective.

Now the second thing I can't go do far in to detail about, just know that for once in my life I felt like a statistic. My girlfriend asked me how I felt about it, and this was prior to me reading it, and I didn't have a care in the world about the situation. But now, after reading a comment, and again, seeing and digesting it, I feel some kind of way. It just make my focus on the above mentioned stronger. I have no ill feelings toward the comment or whom made it because it definitely is what it is but on another note something was lost with that, something I was holding on to pertaining to this person.

Okay...so where was my cousin yesterday for the game, I rushed home from they gym, jumped in the shower, just to speed out to RT to watch the game on a small screen with no sound. The least the Cavs could have done for me is been on fire! Oh well, i'm looking forward to the next game. I do like the Spurs, but i'm a Detroit fan so imma stick with the East. Regardless, food was good and company was pleasant so I managed.

This is going to be a low-impact weekend for me. I'm going to the gym after work and I have quite a bit of studying to do for my finals next week. My girlfriend invited me to a cook-out this weekend and i'm sure i'll be hittin up the gym. I must catch up with my bff this weekend, we haven't hung out in true party form since he got here.

Later Gaters.